Extended breaks

It seems like my posts are getting further and further apart, wouldn't you agree?

I have been just kinda meh about sitting at the computer anymore, nothing really to write about, so why write.

I am still trying to adjust to the mix of meds the doc has me on. Besides the Wellbutrin she had to add Citalopram to the antidepressant treatment. My blood pressure skyrocketed and I began to have anxiety attacks so she had to call me in a scrip for Klonipin. It brought me out of level 1 hypertension at least, but it is still midlevel high. And last but not least, I can't sleep... so she is going to have to give me a scrip for some kind of sleep aid. *sigh*

Oddly enough though, I feel better, I always thought it was absolutely stupid to take a pill to counter act the actions of another pill. My thought process just always said, ok idiot, stop taking all the pills and you will be JUST FINE!

But I wasn't just fine before I started on the meds. I was miserable, I literally looked at least 10 years older then I am, and I was acting 20 years older then I am. I felt haggard, unattractive, unkempt and just didn't have the energy to change anything. I was content to sit in my baggy clothes and watch TV crying all day at the stupidist things.

Even though I should be really dragging ass from exhaustion, IE; only getting about 2-4 hours of interupted sleep every night, constant tossing and turning, and barely asleep. All in all I am getting more done. Granted before this depression got a hold of me I was never a big sleeper. I was lucky if I got 5 hours of uninterupted sleep a night. Working full time, going to college full time, raising kids as a single mom and staying up late gaming. That left very little time to squeeze in sleep. So I guess I shouldn't be too suprised that I am functioning fairly well on such a little amount of sleep.

My housework... it is finally getting done! I am actually starting to get organized. I had pretty much stopped any kind of real cleaning other then laundry and dishes because I was just so overwhelmed by trying to organize the house or figure out where to put stuff. It was like my brain had taken a vacation and didn't tell me. I have focus and clarity back. My kids have even be to change. They were starting to get waspish like me, I had turned into a haranging fishmongers wife and they were picking up the sarcasm and you can't be sarcastic to a person in the mood I was in. We would fight constantly because of it. We hug alot more now and it is great.

I still don't have my energy back yet though, I am really hoping that it makes a come back soon. That will be the last piece of the puzzle to fall back into place and I will be content then :).

So, not sure how regular I will be posting anymore simply because I am trying to not sit so much. If I keep moving I feel great and that is the only way I can think of to rebuild my stamina. Yes that means less photo editing, but I am in the middle of classes now anyway and any sitting time really needs to be while doing school work. Gotta get that digital arts degree!